Wow, it looks like I'm about as good at blogging as I am at journaling! I guess that makes sense, because blogging is like one big public journal. I haven't been blogging much because there isn't a whole lot that is going on in our lives right now. Let me try to think of what has happened since my last post...
Well, for starters, my no-junkfood thing has gone completely out the window! Is anyone really surprised? We got our treadmill sometime over the last 6 weeks (probably around 4 weeks ago) and I've been doing okay with it. I'm only getting on a couple times a week right now, but Matthew and I have been going bikeriding which counts as exercise too. We bought me a new BEE-YOU-TIFUL bike with our Canadian Tire money and I love riding it! What's special about it? It's shiny, purple, and doesn't have a stupid "crotch-bar" as I call it, vulgar as it may be. I really don't know how else to identify this terrible bar that is usually needlessly high and oftens causes guys some trouble when they...well, you get the picture.
I wrote my exams, checked for my marks ohh, probably 3 or 4, or maybe 8 times a day (towards the end, it was seriously every HOUR!) and finally they were all posted. I had worked REALLY hard at this semester of school, harder than I've ever worked, so it would make sense that I did better than I've ever done in university, or even highschool for that matter. How well? Well, if I said it, I'd be bragging and I don't want that, but I WILL say that it pulled up my major average from an 83 to an 85! GO ME!
Matthew and I also celebrated our 4-year anniversary in April. It's hard to believe 4 years have already gone by. In a way, it feels like yesterday, but then when I think of all we've done, gone through and experienced these past 4 years, I'm not surprised at all. I'm so very very happy though, and I hope the next 4 years are AT LEAST as good as these past ones have been. With some work, they might even be better! ;)
It's nearing the end of May now, and I don't have anything to report for this month! It's been quiet, sometimes frustratingly so, but I'm getting better at dealing with it. In a way I feel like I'm in limbo - not working, not going to school, and not having kids. Also, Matt's been working at the office lately, and I don't know if I'm the only one out there who feels this way, but it is SO much easier for me to do the things I need to do (like laundry, other housework, practicing piano, etc) when Matthew is home, just in the next room, than when I am left to my own devices for a solid 8 hours in the day. It feels so lonesome!
People tell me to cherish this time while it lasts, but you know what? I've thought about that, and I think it's dumb advice. Why dumb? Yes, I understand that I'll appreciate this time more once it's gone and won't come back, but isn't that sortof like saying you wish the blessings that came your way didn't come at all so that your life could remain in limbo FOREVER? I'm so ready for the next stage of my life, and I know part of the 'enjoy it while it lasts' maxim is being happy now, and not later, but that doesn't mean I'm going to sit around when I'm bored and lonely and look around and think to myself, "Well, on the upside of things, I COULD have kids making my house noisy and my life busy!" I mean, really. Should it really be a bonus that I don't have kids yet, when I want them so much? So, there is my long-winded, probably foolish and inexperienced rant about why it's DUMB to say "Enjoy it while it lasts."
Phew, now that I'm done complaining, I can move on with this entry. So what have I been doing with all of my free time? Mostly reading Sense and Sensibility, going to the office for lunch, running errands with Farrah, having family over for dinner, neglecting piano, practicing taking pictures, cross-stitching, bike-riding, etc etc. It's not a bad life, just not a terribly meaningful one.
I'm going to be working for Matt for the next couple weeks and I'm actually a little excited about it. I'll be helping to pack orders for Matt's sale that he's having this week, and I actually like that sort of work. Tedious and a little monotonous, but it gives one time to think, and goodness knows I don't have enough time to do that already! It'll also get me out of the house which is LOVELY.
Another thing that I've been doing is attending the intro to photography course in college. I'm really enjoying it, and I'm starting to really understand the functions of my camera. Today I took a photo that was really overexposed and within seconds I had it all fixed and lovely again. It's a kindof empowering feeling, knowing that you're controlling this device in your hands, and not settling for the merely half-decent photo it tries to spit out at you. I want GREAT photos, darnit! GREAT PHOTOS!
That being said, I really need to get into the habit of uploading the pictures I take onto the computer so that I can start posting them in my entries. I like the blogs that people have that document their life with words AND pictures.
Oh, here's something sortof new! I got rid of facebook. I don't just mean I stopped signing in one day, I mean I deleted all the material on my account and then closed it down. The deleting of the material was so that I wouldn't be tempted to join again, because apparently all you need to do to sign back up is just sign in with your email and password, like usual, and BOOM, you're reactivated. They make that way too easy, in my opinion.
Why did I get rid of facebook, you ask? Well, I DID like the photosharing thing, but I hated all the people from highschool and places like that who were adding me to their friends list, just to face-snoop. I mean, there are people I didn't even get along with, and they wanted ME on their friends list? There was a time early in my facebook youth when that flattered me. I thought, "oh cool, we're adults now, and it's like they're saying, 'hey remember how I made fun of you? I'm sorry about that. Let's forget the past and be friends' " BUT NOT SO! That's when I started to realize that facebook was just a tool used to keep tabs on people. Oh, and has anyone else noticed how many people are losing lawsuits, jobs, relationships and even LIVES over content posted (or neglected to be posted) on facebook? I know those people were morons with what they posted, but you do need to be cautious as to the material that you are posting on your "secure" pages.
Now, all this being said, I am fully aware that posting personal content on a blog on the internet is not really any different than keeping an up-to-date facebook profile, but it's a different story. There is not this huge social network linking my blog with millions of other blogs, where everyone and their uncle can see what I'm up to. I'm too tired to explain the difference right now, but it IS different. It feels different. And this is much less of a time-waster, and I'm not going to start snooping on other people, and I'd only post things on here that I'd be okay with anyone seeing. For some reason with facebook, it feels like the world and your network is much smaller than it actually is. For instance, have you realized that ALL of your mutual friends know when you post on another friend's wall? Like, your plans to go to the movies. Or when you change (or someone ELSE changes) your relationship status, or whatever! Oh, and it really drove me crazy, that all of my newsfeed would be dominated by 2 or 3 people who are addicted to facebook and always doing things that facebook apparently thinks I need to know about, like I'm keeping tabs on my "friends" facebook activity. What the heck people!!!
Wow, and I thought I was too tired for all that. There's my second rant for the night. Well, before I finish this off, I will just post a link to a video that I saw on youtube. It is the most hilariously real video I've seen in quite some time, and it was honestly a big factor tipping the balance in the whole 'down with facebook' thing. Here it is:
Anyway, I'm rambling now, and this is getting so long! I'm going to bed, and I'll try to write again sooner than 6 weeks from now!